Oftentimes when I find myself in conversation with someone regarding my work as a spiritual coach, one of the first questions asked is, "How did you get into that?".
Understandably so, the curiosity is natural as this isn't exactly conventional.
I didn't always know that I wanted to be a spiritual conduit for others.
In fact, for many years I repressed the spiritual aspects of myself. Internalizing the notions of what I believed society wanted me to be led me to imagine my future would be based around external factors, such as culturally-revered job titles and stature. This hit a breaking point in my final year of University. I realized the things I was pushing myself towards were hollow pools based on an idea fulfillment, rather than that which actually fulfilled me. This, paired with childhood heaviness I had been avoiding and more recent trauma, was the perfect cocktail for my Dark Night of The Soul.
It was not glamourous, nor was it rich in colour. It was the most heavy and depressive energy I had faced in my life, and it lasted for about 6 months without an action plan or support.
Then, in came the download. I like to joke that the idea was air dropped to me because that is genuinely what it felt like. The thought seemed as though it was presenting itself to me rather than of me. Inviting me to dive further into my purpose with a simple question, "What does a life coach do?" accompanied by a nudge to look it up.
My own thoughts replied to it "A life coach? I don't even know if that's a real thing, is that even a real thing?".
As I was looking it up and reading about the role of a typical coach, I was in shock. I had never found a job role which was that fitting and exciting.
The beacon of light in the dark tunnel I was immersed in had revealed itself.
As I imagined holding joyful gentle space for a client, I was met once more with my own shit.
I knew that with how I was living, I couldn't immediately go into any sort of coaching training. Even if I was setting the space for others, I realized how triggered I would be in hearing people bring forward the details of their own lives including the things they were navigating and struggling with.
I had to coach myself first.
It is always so nerve wracking to ask for help, until you do it and are met with support. Then it becomes easy to look back upon it and wonder, how could I not?
My ask for help included dialectic behavioural therapy paired with working with more unconventional spiritual healing. Energy work from mediums and one specific soul who presented themselves as a bit of a mentor and assisted me on holistically healing and returning to self. I dove deeper into the resources of the natural wellness company I was working for at the time, allowing my personal development to match my professional one.
I wanted to become a version of myself that I recognized from childhood. Someone who was self-assured, curious, kind-hearted and unafraid of the world. Who knew that in caring for yourself you are also able to care for others.
Things tangibly improved. I became more connected to myself. I consciously chose my habits. I stopped numbing myself, I felt my emotions, and even befriended them.
I grew into myself.
The self-growth never really stops, it is lifelong.
There were new opportunities and lessons that have presented in my certification course through Rhodes Wellness College, as well as the ones from developing Inner Attunement.
My commitment to you all, as a coach and as a human, is to never stopping growing.
It is an honour to support you in the journey.
With love,
Emma
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